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"It's impossible." said pride. "It's risky." said experience. "It's pointless." said reason. "Give it a try." whispered the heart.

I hate my timidness, I hate my pride, I hate my brain.
I hate my heart.
I want to rewind time. Or rather just let it stop now.
Yes, right now, at this moment & never move again.
I don't care if it's my birthday next week, I don't care that I would never reach it.
Cos I don't want that. I don't want the worst birthday gift ever.
I'm happy with what I have now. And I don't want to lose any of it.
I know I'm being ridiculous, I know I'm not making any sense.
Yes, you're right, because you have no idea what I'm referring to.
No idea at all.

GAHHH, i should really stop emoing and go mug for eoys le :/
See, I say I on haitus then still keep posting de -____-
& gosh, I should not be thinking about that, it's EOY now. D:
HELLO HELLO CARYN WAKE UP.
BYE BYE READERS GO SLEEP ^^v

CarynHeng!♥
Staying in a jail called DHS, cell number 3FULLSTOP'12. Jailed for loving AIR WEAPONS CLUB too much. Cosplayer, do visit my deviantart to view my work! :D I am definitely one of a kind. No arguments to that please. I can be said to be one of high ego, however much this may appear to be on the surface, I am actually very insecure about myself deep down. Hey, who says acting to have a high ego is wrong? It makes people laugh, which makes me happy. Either way, it helps to ease my insecurities. I'm always the happy one, the retarded one, the cheerful one, the crazy one, the hyperactive one(although this I'm gonna have to admit!:P ), or so it seems to be. I don't normally reveal my true feelings and emotions most of the time, I don't know, but I guess I'm so used to laughing everything off so much that I can't even express my true feelings well. And oh hey! There you are reading this chunk of useless emo shit. Haha. Let's get going to the less emo and boring parts of my biography eh? Meow. So... I love scrapbooking, shooting, watching animes, art&crafts, cosplaying and blogskinning. Did I forget to mention that I'm this one big stalker(I prefer to say creeper), pedophile(Well, not really, since I 'pedo' juniors, girls my age, and seniors. Oh well.), otaku(Well ain't it obvious) and I kind of get called PIG much much muuuccchhhh too often by many people. Ha. Ha. :/ I adore Vocaloid, really, but I prefer to skip Vocaloid songs most of the time when they appear on my phone's playlist, don't ask me why. I have many waifus! They are all the cutest things on Earth and I love them to death. Oh yes, they are mostly anime characters/Vocaloids. Hehe :P Hmm, as you can see, I intend to write a really long biography this time round, so bear with me. Hang in there, yeah? :P It looks nicer when it's longer, and I figured not many would even bother to read this chunk of nonsense anw! :D I am not a very active blogger(if you have not already figured it out yourself), but I will try my best to blog during the holidays! I have limited vocab, so please don't mind if I tend to use too many repetitive words, or lacks awesome adjectives. Whatever. :3 Oh yay, this is getting long! I feel famous, like a pop star now! Omg that was totally irrelevant and stupid. Hehe, sorry, I'm just awesomely random like that. 8D OHYEAA. People know me for my all CAPS language(Not here, not now, haha, but when I'm chatting with you online or smt), and my very awesome whatsapp spams. Cause I am so very awesome I like to split up my one sentence into many messages. I love many people in my life and I am very grateful to have met them :3 I hate it most when people ignore my whatsapp URGH, it pisses me off so so much. == But I may be guilty of that too. :P I am totally typing in irrelevant shits in here now just because I can. And because it's early in the morning(I meant midnight). People are probably judging me now. I get that much too often it doesn't even seem to be important to me anymore. Although yes, it does matter. I should stop trying to put on a brave front. Cause I'm not. In fact, I'm a coward. I'm afraid of failures. Afraid of losing. Losing something or someone I hold close to my heart. I'm afraid of being despised. Very much. Whether I like you or not, I still want you to like me. That's selfish, I know, but I can't let go, you can't make me. I may be over sensitive somehow, but I don't really show it. Oh dear, I am becoming one emo kid.
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BYGONES;

wuliaos

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i shall emo~

hai! i'm not back though

found you, like finally ^^

just like that

A chance

new blogskin!

EOY D: