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"Happy?" you might ask.
Actually, I'm not really THAT happy, in fact, i don't feel anything.
Although tmr is my birthday, I still don't feel that hyper-ness that i used to have.
"Because of THAT?"
"perhaps," would be my reply .
Yes, THAT is something I have dreaded.
Always dreaded.
I knew that this day would come, "but not so soon, not so soon," I tried to convince myself, comfort myself.
But the day is now here, and time is not waiting for me.
I have only two options.
Either make the best out of today, or let myself regret for the rest of my life.
I would have chosen the easy way out though, and that's the latter.
But I don't want to bear anymore regrets in my life.
So i planned to take the first option.
I know it's hard. I know I won't succeed.
But what would I know unless I have tried?
How I hope that I can have all the courage in the world, and be brave enough to face the challenges, the obstacles that stand before me.
Time, please, please, stop for me.
Just stop there and don't move again, won't you?
Because I'm willing to give up my birthday for this wish.

CarynHeng!♥
Staying in a jail called DHS, cell number 3FULLSTOP'12. Jailed for loving AIR WEAPONS CLUB too much. Cosplayer, do visit my deviantart to view my work! :D I am definitely one of a kind. No arguments to that please. I can be said to be one of high ego, however much this may appear to be on the surface, I am actually very insecure about myself deep down. Hey, who says acting to have a high ego is wrong? It makes people laugh, which makes me happy. Either way, it helps to ease my insecurities. I'm always the happy one, the retarded one, the cheerful one, the crazy one, the hyperactive one(although this I'm gonna have to admit!:P ), or so it seems to be. I don't normally reveal my true feelings and emotions most of the time, I don't know, but I guess I'm so used to laughing everything off so much that I can't even express my true feelings well. And oh hey! There you are reading this chunk of useless emo shit. Haha. Let's get going to the less emo and boring parts of my biography eh? Meow. So... I love scrapbooking, shooting, watching animes, art&crafts, cosplaying and blogskinning. Did I forget to mention that I'm this one big stalker(I prefer to say creeper), pedophile(Well, not really, since I 'pedo' juniors, girls my age, and seniors. Oh well.), otaku(Well ain't it obvious) and I kind of get called PIG much much muuuccchhhh too often by many people. Ha. Ha. :/ I adore Vocaloid, really, but I prefer to skip Vocaloid songs most of the time when they appear on my phone's playlist, don't ask me why. I have many waifus! They are all the cutest things on Earth and I love them to death. Oh yes, they are mostly anime characters/Vocaloids. Hehe :P Hmm, as you can see, I intend to write a really long biography this time round, so bear with me. Hang in there, yeah? :P It looks nicer when it's longer, and I figured not many would even bother to read this chunk of nonsense anw! :D I am not a very active blogger(if you have not already figured it out yourself), but I will try my best to blog during the holidays! I have limited vocab, so please don't mind if I tend to use too many repetitive words, or lacks awesome adjectives. Whatever. :3 Oh yay, this is getting long! I feel famous, like a pop star now! Omg that was totally irrelevant and stupid. Hehe, sorry, I'm just awesomely random like that. 8D OHYEAA. People know me for my all CAPS language(Not here, not now, haha, but when I'm chatting with you online or smt), and my very awesome whatsapp spams. Cause I am so very awesome I like to split up my one sentence into many messages. I love many people in my life and I am very grateful to have met them :3 I hate it most when people ignore my whatsapp URGH, it pisses me off so so much. == But I may be guilty of that too. :P I am totally typing in irrelevant shits in here now just because I can. And because it's early in the morning(I meant midnight). People are probably judging me now. I get that much too often it doesn't even seem to be important to me anymore. Although yes, it does matter. I should stop trying to put on a brave front. Cause I'm not. In fact, I'm a coward. I'm afraid of failures. Afraid of losing. Losing something or someone I hold close to my heart. I'm afraid of being despised. Very much. Whether I like you or not, I still want you to like me. That's selfish, I know, but I can't let go, you can't make me. I may be over sensitive somehow, but I don't really show it. Oh dear, I am becoming one emo kid.
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